Recently there has been one thing that has consumed me, my broken heart. All I can do is think of him, miss him, love him. At least the him I thought I knew. I've heard "our song" more times in the last couple weeks than I heard our entire relationship, and for awhile I thought it was a sign or something, like maybe something had finally changed. Thats what I WANTED to believe, well it only took 4 minutes and 43 seconds for me to see that what I WANTED wasn't what I NEEDED. It was in the 4 minutes that my broken heart was shattered. After tears, hoplessness, self pity, and another 50 minutes and 42 seconds on the phone with one of my .Angels. I was able to start realizing why it all had happened, why I've been consumed, and to realize that in that 4 minutes and 43 seconds I had heard what I truly needed to finally move on. To let my heart be put back together, to keep searching. To love again. I get it now, after 8 months of sadness, being lonely, and wondering why, I am able to see the blessing. And I am grateful.
xoxo-D
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