I haven't written for awhile. Not from a lack of time, or ideas. But because I haven't known how to express the insane amounts of information, emotions, and ideas running through my head. I have known I needed to make some sort of life change I just haven't figured out what the change is, or how to make it.
I have known for a couple years now what it is I ultimately want out of life. It hasn't been a secret to any of those who know me very well. To be a wife and a mom is what I want. Unfortunately, not something you can order online, save up for, or study to achieve. It requires a twist of fate. A twist I haven't found yet.. so in the meantime, what is it I want to do? Move? new job? school? all of the above? beats me... I guess that would be the problem.
Here is the list of random ideas I have had, none of which I have been able to commit to and pursue, I know, shocking ;]
-Montana
-Arizona
-Utah
-Wyoming
-CNA
-Hair school
-Receptionist
-Waitress
And thats just the beginning of the list... No rhyme or reason, I know. Now if I could just follow my heart and find some peace in myself. Wish me luck. In time it will come. In the mean time I need to stop wanting to fall in love, my heart is tender and my spirit is broken at the moment. For now I just need to be me, and that just has to be good enough.
much love,
xoxo
-D.
I bet you aren't interested in my advice but I'm going to give it to you anyways. Until you know what you want to do with your life find a job that pays the bills and gives you extra cash. Save up and start traveling - volunteer abroad or go on a group historical tour. These things could help you bump into that special someone you'll spend the rest of your life with. And, remember, if you never leave you can never come back so get out of Rexburg. I love you! Ryanne
ReplyDeleteI only have one thing to say and that is. "when you stop looking for love, it will find you" I know that this seems like BS. But i really do think it's true. I want nothing more then to attend your wedding and hold your new little one in my arms as aunt randi. But it will happen Dani doo. When it is suppose to happen, it will!
ReplyDeleteSo I have hated my computer for a long time and got on it as little as possible...good news- I got a new computer. Bad news-I missed your comment about coming down to AZ! How did you like Tucson? I have only been there once. We are 5 hours from there in Snowflake. I really enjoy AZ and all though we are far away from family we have great friends. Thats one thing that no matter where we live we always meet great people! Take care of your self! Luv ya!
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