Today started out in the hospital, I stayed the first night with mom after she had been admitted to the hospital for an infection due to complications from her surgery. We were woken up at 6:45 a.m. and the day began. I spent the morning with mom keeping her company and making sure her needs were being met.
At about 11:00 a.m. dad came to the hospital and he and I had lunch together before I gathered my thing and left to get ready to go to work for the afternoon. I went home, showered and got ready and went to work at 2:00. I was supposed to be going to be getting off work, going home to pack, and leaving for a weekend get a way to utah with a few friends.
Thats when my night changed, and my hell began.
I drove back to the hospital to see mom one more time before I left, not long after arriving there I got a text from my best friend saying there her husband and been in an accident, rolled his jeep, and hit a pole. I panicked. for her and for their family. She said that he was ok and wasn't hurt, but she was scared. Naturally. I hurried my visit with my mom to go be with her and make sure she was okay, insistent that I was still making the trip to utah even though the weather was bad and road conditions were awful.
I got to Brandi's house and made sure that everything was okay and that she was okay and calm. From there my night got worse. I recieved the phone call I never wanted to have. It was my mom. Trevor was on his way to the emergency room in the back of an ambulance. I lost it. I felt numb and yet hot and cold all over my body at the same time. I lost the ability to stand upright on my own and fell down to the floor. I recovered myself knowing I needed to move quickly. Through tears and quick apologies I left Brandi and ran to my car.
I arrived back at the hospital and sprinted to my moms room on the second floor knowing I needed to convince to her to stay lying helpless in a hospital bed while her baby was being brought with with god knows what. we knew nothing. The only thing my dad was able to find out during his wait in the ER was that they were transporting a non responsive male.
My world was crashing and my family was in turmoil, I knew I had to be strong until we knew more. As soon as I could convince my mom to let me go ahead of her to find out what had happened, and made sure the nurse knew under no circumnstance was my mom to leave her hospital bed. I raced back to the first floor and though the ER doors not knowing what I was going to find behind the curtain.
Thankfully Trevor was okay. He had suffered from a first time grand mal seizure with an unknown cause. He was out of it, but stable. They ran multiple tests looking for some answers but none were to be found. My dad and I just traded each other off between floors trying to keep everyone informed and calm.
Around 9:45 p.m. Trevor was released from the ER with Doctor's orders not to drive or operate heavy machinery and to rest for at least 2 days.
Mom on the other hand will be spending her 3rd night in the hospital hoping that the infection will clear and the doctors will be able to figure out what is causing it, how to cure it, and how to prevent it from coming back.
It made me realize first hand, how easily my family could have been ripped apart. How in the blink of an eye I could have lost one of the most important people in my life, and a piece of my soul. Today has been a long day, very emotional just letting it all process and sink in. Finally allowing my body to attempt to relax a bit...
Everyone asks what we need or what they can do to help, and I'm so thankful for them and their kind words and offers, but really.. what do I say? Please cure an infection so I can have my mom back? Please make my brother make better life choices so I don't lose him? Please remove all this stress from my dad so he doesn't continue to age and take years off his life? I mean, those are the things I wish I could ask for. That I wish more than anything someone could give to me. But its not possible.. so for now, all I know to ask for is prayers. Please pray for my family. Pray for our strength, and unity, and the power of healing. Not just physically but emotionally and for our hearts. All of our hearts were broken last night, I just can't express how grateful I am for the chance to mend them, and our second chance with Trevor.
Tonight, hug the ones you love and make sure they know their worth in your life, you never know how quickly you will lose that opportunity to do so.
xoxo-D.
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