What I need...

This last week has been exhausting.
I will be honest.
I feel like I have nothing left to give...
My body hurts.
My eyes are strained.
Head is throbbing.
My energy doesn't exist.
I feel like I barely do.

On paper, and in my head, I know what it is I want out of life. I know what I'm looking for and what I need to find. But my reality... makes it feel impossible to go after those things... I know know how to break away, and become my own person.

I want a man.. not a boy, a man. The kind of man that can love me even when I don't deserve because believe it or not that will always be when I need it the most. I need the man who would be willing to drop everything when I need him, even if there is nothing he can do, but just to hold me. To take care of me, when I am busy taking care of everyone else. I need the man who can accept me for who I am and love me even when its wrong. The man who has the ability to make me believe I am as important to him as he is to me. Who won't put other before me and won't always have an excuse ready for why he's not around. I want a man who can see a future with me and isn't to afraid to find out if its meant to be. A loyal, honest, faithful man. Hardworking, funny, spontaneous and a little bit romantic. I need a man who sees my potential and pushes me as much I push him. Who can laugh through the pain and sadness in the world and just be there to hold my hand as we get through it, together.

I need a career where I can feel like I am making a difference each day, where I can help people, and leave them better than I find them. I need a job to challenge me. To make me feel like I worked for my paycheck and a job that I can love.

I need fullfillment, contentment, love, passion, loyalty, happiness, challenge, room to grow, courage, laughter, stimulation and everything else in between in my life, and my relationships...

Its all out there. I just need to discover my path to my paradise. I need to learn to open my heart and mind and spirit. I need to love again. I need to feel again. I need to learn to take in everything life has to give me, no matter how hard it may seem or scary.

much love.
xoxo-D.